I can't stand this -- waiting to hear from the Cambridge Art Association if I am in the "Blue" show or not. It is awful. I keep trying to get my mind prepared for the hurt of being rejected and yet I can't seem to get myself into a state of mind where I know it will be OK if I am, and that worries me. It is just such an awful feeling, even though I know that my work was enjoyed by so many this weekend, and also by my classmates and teacher. It would still feel lousy to be excluded from the show. My stomach is in knots and I can't seem to get it to calm down. I wish I would just hear already.